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• hj: tell me about the things we did this weekend, what you liked and what you didn't like
• hj: also if we didn't do something you wanted to do
• me: some of it is a blur, but in a good way
• me: i liked when i was going down on you from my knees and you had your hands on my head and i looked up and could see you watching me
• me: i liked the way you grabbed my ass and pulled my hair when you were fucking me from behind
• me: i liked how you used your hands when you were going down on me in the shower
• hj: yes, all good info!
• me: i liked that i felt more confident
• hj: yeah. especially that first night.
• me: i had a little liquid courage...
• hj: i liked when you would glance when i was in your mouth
• hj: it was also kinda awesome when you were in makeup haha
• me: haha

adam
josh
brandon
nelson
bk
joe e.
ben
dan

jani

patrick

vanessa

maura

will
tedd
bob
mark
sam
shimri
kellan
joe k.

• hj: why do you hate me so much?
• me: because you won't delete those horrible photos.
• hj: i need all the pics of you i can get.
• me: haha why? only good ones though
• hj: because i miss your face when you're not around
• me: aren't you sweet.
• hj: fuck you
• me: fuck you
• hj: how's work?

• jwsc jr: i thought i was over zooey d. but then i saw a preview for her sitcom...
• me: i saw the pilot. it's funny.
• jwsc jr: yeah? good.
• me: i love her. i don't know if i want to be her or if i want to do her. both?
• jwsc jr: i'm leaning towards do. but that's just me.
• jwsc jr: i wouldn't wanna do the dude from deathcab.
• me: neither would i.
• jwsc jr: maybe i'd be zooey doing you.
• jwsc jr: but then i wouldn't have a penis, and i enjoy having that sometimes.
• me: maybe it could be all three of us.
• jwsc jr: that's the best idea i've ever heard.
• me: i'll work on it.
• jwsc jr: wonderful. maybe we can practice a bunch so we come at her with some moves.

this last weekend is such a blur. all i remember is crying and fucking. on separate occasions, thank god.

and for some of the nicest texts i’ve ever received:

8/21/11

me: I always thought you were really hot btw. I’m flattered that you were interested in me.

too cool: Haha T and I were just talking about how pretty you are and how fun you were to hangout with.

8/22/11

too cool: I thought about you a lot today. It was kinda gay.

me:  I thought about you too. It wasn’t gay at all.

‘you’re going to be great.’

‘so are you… you already are.’

by my darling dinosaur.

• Me: did S open his gift yet?
• R: yeah, he opened it last night. im not positive, but i think he cried.
• Me: oh man, really? i didn't want to upset him.
• R: he said it was the nicest thing anyone ever gave him, and now the nicest things he has in his possession.
• Me: now I'm going to cry.
• R: don't, he's ok...he was just moved by it. i think it means a lot to him to know how much you care.
• Me: then I'm glad I did that.
• R: me too.